I have always had a bit of a sweet tooth. My husband used to scoff at me when we first started dating until I changed him over to my way of things and got him hooked on the sweets too. But he never really mowed down a batch of cookies the way I could. He would maybe have 4 or 5 and move on. Not me, I would easily get through the entire batch as a treat after breakfast. Then after lunch, maybe a pack of M&M’s. Then as a late afternoon snack I may have some Trader Joe’s Dark Chocolate Butter Cups, like a whole box. Then of course ice cream for after dinner. The cycle would repeat, and now 10 years later I am writing this post. After my second baby was born in March I used my lack of sleep as a great reason to just binge on my sugar. Like, BINGE. Sugar for breakfast, sugar for lunch, soda, Italian soda, Orangina, candies, and on and on and on and on and on. Candy in all corners of the house, wrappers everywhere. How are you so skinny after 2 kids Regan? Oh, well maybe it’s because I don’t eat any real food and sugar really fills me up so I really don’t have to eat much of anything else??? Then the day came. My 6 month old slept 12 hours right through the night. And the next night. And the next night. I suddenly had no “reason” for this type of sugar consumption anymore. No excuse. Yet here I was macking down on it day after day. I realized long ago I may have an actual addiction. Now I was staring in the mirror face to face with the reality that I did. I had a massive, ungodly addiction. One day at work, staring at the immense crafty table filled with all of my favorite junk foods, I decided to eat a banana. Then an apple. Then some raw nuts. Then water. I spent the 12 hour work day snacking on all things my body could actually use, and it was HARD. But I made it through!!! That night I went home and had a horrible headache, my first headache in 15 years. I went to sleep. When I woke up, I could barely move. My head was pounding, my brain was foggy, my arms were weak and I felt like I could throw up.
Could this be the sugar??? I google it. Guess what? Every symptom I have is from acute sugar withdrawal. My body was actually hurting for sugar. I had to have my mom come to watch the kids so I could lay down and sleep and moan and sleep and moan. The next day I woke feeling just as bad. Day four I started to be able to think again and see straight. Day five my headache finally went away. Day 6, I was a new person. Today I am on day 16 and have made it through the dreaded Halloween, I have to say I have never chewed more gum in my life. Like back to back pieces of gum. Chain chewing. And I made it through.
I write this because I realize now just how serious this problem really is. Sugar is one of the leading causes of cancer and tumor growth. It effects the same part of the brain as cocaine and heroin. I never believed it could cause so much harm to my healthy looking body, but it has. I was told that many people join overeaters anonymous just to battle this type of addiction. I am hoping to remain strong through the holidays, but as good as I feel currently I think I will be fine. One of the biggest changes I have seen in myself is mood swings. They’re gone. I’m level, even, present, calm, patient. It’s been an intense change and I am so happy I decided enough was enough. Beware though, sugar is in everything we eat. Trying to buy a breakfast cereal has been quite challenging, who would have thought! There are a few amazing documentaries to help you get the motivation/fear you need to rid your life of sugar as well: